Can relate to an extent, sometimes people are so clueless and self-centered, I hope your friend is just being inappropriate and not intentionally trying to make you feel bad.

I hope so too.  I keep telling myself that she is just going through a phase with her divorce, feeling free and single again, and is just being immature and self-centered.  I don’t want to believe that she is purposely trying to rub it in my face, but sometimes it’s hard to see it any other way.  I don’t know how long I will be able and/or willing to put up with it no matter whether it’s cluelessness or meanness. 

I’ve been avoiding a similarly arrogant and spoiled and self-important “friend” also. The more I see her true colors the less I can or want to tolerate her.

Oh man this is exactly it.  I feel kind of dumb for not seeing these personality traits before, or maybe seeing them but choosing to turn a blind eye.  But the longer this goes on, the more obvious they become and the less I like her.  Tolerate is the perfect word.  That is about all I can do anymore is tolerate her.  And even that is wearing very thin.  I keep hoping she will drift away on her own, become closer with some of her other friends that she has been hanging out with recently or choose one of the new men in her life and move on.  Wishful thinking.

Very introspective. And it’s true… I think that happens to some of us, so many aspirations but we don’t find the time or the motivation to start them. At least you’re aware of that.

Exactly .. .. .. it took me having several of these dreams and realizing that there was a definite theme to figure out what they meant.  And why I keep having them.

I’m hoping that this awareness will eventually bring about change.

I’m working on the lack the motivation for some things and overcoming the fear/anxiety that holds me back on the others.

allefory:

pursuingmypeace replied to your post: So confused…

I have a repetitive dream about school where I suddenly realize it’s finals week and I haven’t been to class in months and I know I will fail. Sometimes it’s high school, sometimes college, but the theme is always the same.

Interesting. I’ve had a couple like that before. Every dream means different things to each person depending on their experiences and the memories they keep of them. I’ve heard this is a pretty common theme. Fear of failure? Pressure? Expectations? I can see how that can end up being stressful. Even more if it is a recurring dream.

These dreams always feel like they are more about the bigger picture .. .. .. I’m failing in general and the ‘final’ is just the symbol of that.

When I was in school, I was a nerd.  Definitely very caught up in grades and grade point average and all that.  So yes, in the dream I’m definitely stressed about the fact that I am going to fail the final.  But by far the most upsetting part in the dream is realizing that time has gone by and I’ve been absent, skipping class, not participating, not studying .. .. .. doing all the things I am supposed to be doing.

I feel like the point/theme of the dream is more about what is going on my life now, how I’m feeling about myself and my life.  It’s about how I’m angry at myself for letting everything slip away, embarrassed that I let it all get so out of control, ashamed of myself for being so lazy and aimless.  About how I am letting days, weeks, months go by and I’m just sitting here doing nothing.  Not doing any of the things that I love doing - no taking walks, no photography, no writing, no dancing, no gardening.  Some days I feel like I’m not even really watching it go by.  I go to work, I come home, I sleep. I numb out everything else.

School just happens to be the setting my dreaming mind chooses because it has always been such an important part of life for me.  And probably the concept of ‘failure’ is such an easy point to make in a school setting.